Now that's ju...

Now that's just irritating. Voice class was cancelled today, but four of us didn't know that because the only notice we got about it was via e-mail. I don't have internet at home, so I can't check my e-mail unless I'm at school. And really I'm just not "OMFG! I have to check my e-mail!" every five minutes. Ah well... at least I can enjoy more of this beautiful day. Even if I would've rather slept in instead of getting up for my one class of the day only to find it cancelled.C'est la vie.

Woo! ...

Woo! Yeah! The State of Michigan gave me back $125 in taxes (even though I thought I wasn't getting anything). Thank you State of Michigan! I promise not to insult you for the next few hours. ^_^

Greg. Chagny is l...

Greg. Chagny is located just south of Dijon if you're interrested.

I need to h...

I need to hang out with people more often. Even when we have nights of failure like Lia and I did last night (after midnight) trying to score a copy of Kingdom Hearts 2 (fuck you Meijer! and fuck you Mart of Wal)... and especially fuck the cops that pulled us over while Lia was driving (and I still don't know why they demanded to see my liscence too... >.>) We really do need a 24 hour Best Buy.But Andy brought me three of Voltaire's CDs back from I-con. *woo happy!* Currently listening to Almost Human. I also have Banned on Vulcan and Then and Again.Also slept through my alarm this morning and decided just to skip my Photo lab. I didn't have anything to do in that class today anyway.

1. I...

1. Initials:~ MBD2. Name someone with the same birthday as you:~ Eric3. Last thing you ate:~ SlimFast Strawberry Cheesecake bar4. Are you for or against same sex marriage?~ For.5. Are you homophobic?~ No6. Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday morning?~ Occasionally, if I wake up that early and can't fall asleep again, or when I'm getting ready for work.7. Do you believe in “Dog”?~ ...8. How many U.S states have you been to?~ 44 to 46 I think.9. How many of the U.S states have you lived in?~ One10. Ever lived outside of the US?~ No.11. Name something you like physically about yourself:~ Uh... my eyes?12. Something non-physical you like:~ My astounding rampant weirdness, even if I don't ever fully let it out so no one really knows just how weird I really am.13. What is your dad’s name:~ Case14. What is your dream car?~ Certainly not that heap of crap I'm driving right now.15. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?~ Paris, France16. What is your favorite type of food?~ Crab legs... and chocolate. Not together though.17. Favorite holiday:~ Halloween18. Do you download music?~ Yes.19. What illegal things have you done?~ I drive too fast20. Where would you want to go on a first date?~ ... like I could get a date...21. Would you date the person who posted this before you?~ No...22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?~ No23. Have you ever cried for no reason?~ Yeah.24. Do you like Bush?~ Not at all.25. Have you ever bungee jumped?~ No.26. Have you ever white-water rafted?~ No27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?~ Yeah... he's creepy... *shudder*28. Last person you hugged:~ Does Arwyn count? If not then I think it was Brandi at work.29. Have you met a real redneck?~ I grew up in a town full of 'em.30. How is the weather right now?~ Warmer than it has been, and rainy31. Song you are listening to right now:~ Nothing, In the computer lab at school32. What are your current favorite songs?~ Haven't really had time to really concentrate on music much lately, but "Oh Mio Babino Caro" keeps getting stuck in my head... much to my upstairs neighbors chagrin I'm sure.33. What was the last movie you watched?~ V for Vendetta34. Do you wear contacts?~ No.35. Where was the last place you went besides your house?~ School36. What are you afraid of?~ I'd say dying alone, but I'm not really afraid of it, just sad about it. Other than that I'm not really scared of anything. Weary and sick of a lot, but not scared.37. OOOOH:~ Donuts!38. How many pets do you have?~ One cat, Arwyn39. Have you ever loved someone?~ I love my friends and family. Romantically? Uh... I thought so at one point, but I'm not really so sure it was love and not that I was just so frantic that someone seemed to want me for once.41. What do you usually order from Starbucks?~ Chai, but I avoid Starbucks usually.42. Have you ever fired a gun?~ Yes.43. Are you missing someone?~ I suppose44. Say something totally random about yourself:~ I seem to be trying to give myself an eating disorder lately.45. Do you have an Ipod?~ No.46. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?~ I got told I looked like Lisa Loeb back when I was in high school, back before I got my hair permed. Now, not so much.47. What’s your mom's name?~ Ann48. Who would you like to see right now?~ Anyone49. Favorite band of all time (only ONE):~ Nightwish50. Dogs or cats?~ Cats51. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supposed to be doing?~ Yeah, who hasn't?52. Favorite flower?~ Roses, those really dark red ones.53. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn?~ Butter AND salt.54. What books are you reading?~ "The Good Earth" by Pearl S. Buck. Just finished "The World According to Garp" by John Irving55. Have you ever ridden in a limo?~ Nope.56. Has anyone you were really close to passed away?~ One of my best friends of all time died of cancer when I was 20. And my step-grandmother when I was 16.57. Do you watch MTV?~ Ha! No.58. What's something that really bugs you?~ Ignorance, stupid people... my job.59. What are some things you really like doing?~ Reading, arty stuff (drawing, painting photography, etc)60. 69?~ Nah... try for a bishop.61. Can you dance?~ Uhm... I can stomp and writhe around rythmically, does that count?62. Favorite basketball team:~ None.63. Favorite cereal:~ Cranberry Vanilla Crunch or Reses PeanutButter Cup.64. Do you drive?~ Yep, and my car is trying to kill me. It hasn't actively done anything to me in a while, but just you wait!65. What's the latest you have ever stayed out?- 8 am66. Last time you went bowling:~ Years ago, it was the time Lia bounced the bowling ball across two lanes and into a wall.67. Were you ever rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?~ No.68. Who was your last phone call?~ Greg.69. Last time you were at work:~ Sunday night.70. What’s your favorite state to be in?~ Not Michigan. Though Florida and Texas are even lower on the list (unless I'm going to Disney world or something)

Yay! I have all...

Yay! I have all art classes next Fall! 19 credits! .... holy poo I'm going to die.... And yet I still want to add a one credit private instruction in voice class to that. I think I like giving myself pain. Well... okay. We all know that I like pain, but really now, why do I do these things to myself? Oh, yeah... because I want to graduate now.Saw V for Vendetta last night. It was pretty good, even if they did screw things up royally in some parts. But it did not suck, and V's home was awesome and very inspiring for Erik's lair type stuff for "the comic" that Greg and I are working on. And since I'm Picture Monkey to his Word Monkey I get to wallow in all the lovely aesthtic details I want. (so nyah)

What ...

What is it about 31 year old guys in media/TV that love to cook messaging me on OKCupid today? Weird... And I'm still too shy to respond. This is why I'll die alone.

I cont...

I continue to win at photography! Yay for me! ^_^Today was a bit more exciting during our Graphic Communications pre-crit than usual. As two people decided to sit on top of the older-than-dirt light table and ended up falling through the glass. They're okay. But man was that stupid.

I finally got...

I finally got off my can and actually made a few decent icons. My last set was really starting to bug me. So... uh... yay for Sarah Bernhardt?

I made a point ...

I made a point of not just doing my usual "I don't feel like even trying to look good so I'm going to just throw on a pair of jeans and t-shirt" thing today.... and was promptly hit on by the bus driver this morning. At least he wasn't one of the creepy, skeezy bus drivers. But still...On a totally different note: I love FUZE Pomogranite White Tea. And Odwalla Bars still taste like fruity tree bark. But I am not feeling all bloaty and nasty today, so this is a good thing. I think that the decision to stop eating shortly before going to bed has helped a lot too. Now if I could just get the cat to stop waking me up in the middle of the night for kitty treats I'd be all set.

Hey MSU a...

Hey MSU and former MSU people... does anyone know how to file a complaint about an instructor? Because I'll be damned if I'm going to fail this damn class because you never know if she'll be there or not, and she never show's up when she says she's going to. I don't even know what the fuck is going on in that class right now (nor do 99% of my classmates). It sure doesn't sit well when she sends a mass e-mail to us threatening to fail us all (or at least give us "bad grades") because none of us were there when she finally showed up last Wednesday (we waited for 45 goddamned minutes lady...)*sigh* Well... we'll see how it goes today. We're supposed to go do "research" at the library today.

I am g...

I am going to strangle my painting professor.A lot.

Everytime...

Everytime I start feeling good about my own singing voice I hear someone who is just so much better and I go back to thinking that I'll never be a decent singer. I would kill to have voice like the girl who just sang in my voice class! Well, no... not really I guess. But I would love to be able to sound like that. *sigh* Ah, well...

Ever...

Everytime I start feeling good about my own singing voice I hear someone who is just so much better and I go back to thinking that I'll never be a decent singer. I would kill to have voice like the girl who just sang in my voice class! Well, no... not really I guess. But I would love to be able to sound like that. *sigh* Ah, well...

Making lemonade out of lemons

So apparently all I have to do to get comments around here is to demand men. Ha! ^_^I also apparently have mad 133+ photo processing skills in the darkroom... as only I can turn a devistating film processing accident into something incredibally good. The film spool I was using came apart during developing so most of my film got stuck together and came out as a nice, big, greyish, unprocessed, blob of nothing. I did manage to salvage 5 (and a half!) pictures (off a 36 exposure roll). It was the half picture that really came out well though. There were some blobs and shadows around the edges and in the corners which I thought looked really neat. We're doing portraiture right now. So I was all "hey teach! I think I can take this and run with it!". And I did. Granted I still need to shoot at least one more roll of film now, but that's pretty easy. ^_^*dances around all happy like a big goddamned fool*

Why do ...

Why do I let the stupid little things get under my skin so much? I've been feeling really good lately too. It's so stupid, and I wish I didn't let it get to me. It's just a goddamned song Kyla... you're not even a singer for godssakes!Ah, well... keep living and get over it, eh? Yes, I'm fully willing to admit that I have my hang-ups and that when I get upset (whether over something important or not) I'm probably going to pop a few veins until I decide that I'm being an idiot. I didn't get this upset when it started raining in my bathroom. I just sighed, put out a bucket and threw down some towels. *curtsies* Presenting the Amazing Unpredictable Kyla!I suppose its a good thing that I can laugh at myself still though. Granted, I really don't want to sing this song, but I will. No use being childish about it. I'm going to be 27 in a month (exactly a month) after all. 27!? Ugh... and I've just mentally reached 19... No, that's not right. I am 26 (for another month) I just have a... watchacallit... playful? immature? I-don't-wanna-grow-up-cause-I'm-a-Toy'rUs-kid? streak.And now! MEN! I demand men!*waits**waits more**still waiting*This is gonna take a while, so feel free to go grab a bubble tea or something.*more waiting*Dammit... now I want bubble tea.

Today I've learne...

Today I've learned that I can still be mad very very angry by stupid things. Such as having to sing "Put on a Happy Face" from Bye Bye Birdie for my voice final. I. HATE. THAT. GODDAMNED. SONG. I don't even like Bye Bye Birdie. At all. Frankly I'm insulted by the fact that my voice instructor felt that this was the best song for me to sing out of the dozens of songs that are in our songbook. After getting over the thoughts that this is the absolute worst song you could ever make someone who has struggled with being suicidally depressed for the vast majority of her life to sing then I start thinking that maybe I really do suck as much as I used to think I do and he doesn't think I could sing anything more complex. This song sure as hell doesn't even test my range... at all.So, yeah... I'm pissed as all hell over this. Even though I know it's a silly thing to get angry over. And I'm really embarrassed that I want to cry because of this.Well, he did say that I should try to "feel angry" when I sing. This is a really poor way to get me to do that though.

Oh yay! Spring i...

Oh yay! Spring is coming! The air is warming up! It's raining in my bathroom!Wait... did she say "raining in the bathroom"?Why yes. Yes I did. Apparently a pipe or something burst or started leaking or something (honestly at this point I don't care why it happened I just wanted it to stop). And I had water pouring in from the exhaust fan and down the door jamb. Not all the time, just some of the time. I think they've fixed it now though... all that noise and banging they were making yesterday they'd better have fixed it...But anyway... Warmer weather makes me happy... until it gets too warm, then I'll start complaining again. Spring Break was nice. Didn't do as much as I feel I should have, but it's fucking Spring Break! and I deserve a break once in a while!.

Woo! OMG ...

Woo! OMG that was so much fun! ^_^ Well... once I stopped being nervous as hell and squeaking through the song I was singing. Today I had my "midterm" for voice (we sing three times, solo, in class. This was number two). I sang "Any Dream Will Do" from Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat (actually Janelle and I both sang the same song today... only two people sing a day). I had it down this mornig. But when I tried to sing it the first time around I squeaked and cracked through the first half. By the time I got to the second half I was in "who gives a shit" mode and actually started singing decently. David, my instructor, made me start again (his little secret for me: pretend the audience hates you and hate them back... trust me this works) and it sounded SO much better the second time around. After that he had me do some basic singing excersizes... and I surprized the hell out of him, Bree (the accompanment), and the class. Holy shit those were some high notes! ^_^ He's pretty sure I'm a dramatic soprano (though he won't say for certain), except that I'm higher in range than most dramatics (and he was really impressed that I was getting that high considering I was still really tense and nervous). His biggest piece of advice to me was to relax (which I already knew) because I have a really big voice, I just have to learn how to use it.*giddy*Oh yeah... and to hell with locking this journal.

'cause everyone else is doing it... and I'm addicted to these stupid dollmakers... too bad they don't have anything remotely resembling my hair, ever...